I admit it...I'm Lonely....

After living in military housing for years....and making some amazing friendships....well, I have to admit now that I am so lonely. I have seriously got to make some friends. It's just not happening here and I hate it. I adore my family and Kent is my best friend but I am not ashamed to admit that I need a girlfriend....seriously. I miss my buddies. I miss having someone to grab to run to Wal-mart or Target with....or have come over and plop down on the couch and shoot the bull with.... I miss knowing that if the world is falling apart...or if their world is falling apart....we are not much more than a phone call away. This really sucks. I keep wondering when I will find someone...who I click with who will think I am amazing and who I think is amazing and we will just hit it off. :(

I am going to get a part time job very soon here....and that is going to complicate life for me...but I am looking forward to it because it will provide opportunities to meet people and help with some of the expenses that the kids continually have. I can't believe how it's money for this, and money for that. I am also very proud to say that our Kelley will be graduating next year and I know that will cost it's own fortune and then college will be after that and I want to help with that....I want her to be successful.....I am so unbelievably proud....there just aren't any words. Some of you really close to us can't really relate to why I feel the way I do. She is amazing and so full of hope and looking forward to all her possibilities. Wow!

Today it is gorgeous outside and there is a neighborhood just north of here call Kingwood and it has these paths called "greenbelts" and they wind around for literally miles...they run along Lake Houston. I am going to pack up the jogging stroller, plenty of water and hit the trails. I have been walking for longer stretches....because I am trying to build up my endurance. Mon,Tue,Wed...I walked 1 hour 15 minutes to as long as 1 hour 25 minutes. I still walk at my fast pace just for a longer period of time. I rested yesterday and will go today and then tomorrow because I stick to 5 days a week as a rule. I would like to commit to a 1/2 marathon which is January and not sure that I can run but know I could speed walk it. Perhaps I am selling myself short with the running....since I am not a trainer...don't have one right now....this is what I am working on....In June there is a training group that I may join that does 26 week training for the 1/2 marathon and they do a beginner group for people like me...and that might be the way to get the proper help to learn to run.

This read was probably long and boring for most....sorry about that.

Selfish Ladies Sends.......