Saturday, June 27, 2009

One Long Walk

That is what I took this morning. I walked 8.2 miles this morning and it was just WOW....hard but awesome all at the same time. I knew I could do it...I never doubted for one second that I'd be able to make it...but toward the end I was running out of steam. I said a prayer before I left...just asking for strength and protection and the courage to "DO IT"...and I did. I am grateful for that. It was so nice to see the sun rise over the lake, watch the turtles bank and then there were the not so lovely close encounters with spider webs. I walked right in to a few of those. Yuck! It was a learning experience. I am trying to build up my endurance and will also have to work on my speed as I push on toward my January goal of the half marathon.

As I was walking I was thinking...I had plenty of time for that. I was remembering how trapped I once felt. I have spent a big part of my life being trapped by my body and then just being trapped in general by the "you shouldn'ts". It has really sucked and I am so over that. I feel free now and I am living my life and will not be trapped anymore. I will do what I want and enjoy my life and my future and choose for myself what I should and shouldn't do. I will not allow anyone to guilt me. I am a grown woman who is perfectly capable of making the right decisions for myself. I am like a butterfly....I have finally busted free of that cocoon. My only regret is that I waited so long but then again...I would not be the very person I am at this moment had I not waited...so it all works out. Life is good.

2 comments:

The Silly Witch said...

I love the blog. It's so...you. I can hear your voice in your writing. And I agree that you are far from selfish in real life. I congratulate you on putting you first in one place. That's something I have a very hard time doing.

Sarah Marie said...

Congratulations on that 100 lb mark. You look great. And I bet you feel great too. :) You have a great writing style. I look forward to following your progress.

Sarah Marie (from CC)