Friday, April 3, 2015

No Wednesday post this week....

It's been a crazy week this week since I got back from my trip to California which was amazing. I had a wonderful time and LOVED the opportunity to go sleeveless and bask in the sunshine. I missed it. It was a joy to finally achieve the goal that I set for myself when and if I broke 200 and that was the walk across the Golden Gate Bridge. I did that with my best friend. I got a little choked as I watched her because I knew what it meant to her as well as she has lost now over 165 pounds I believe. I asked her while we were walking if she could have pictured us here a year ago as we walked arm in arm, holding hands at time...and she said..."No way". It was surreal. What a huge change our lives have taken. It is a gift to be here now in this place mentally and physically and I am so grateful for struggles and heartaches and hitting the bottom. It is those moments that made me change and decide I just couldn't stay in that place I was in. I want to be different. 
I will post pictures of my trip and some will include my cool photo shoot my buddy took with me. She dolled me up with heavy makeup and took some head shots. She is a nut but it was so fun and of course looking at them makes me something I don't see every day. The trip was filled with girl talk and shopping and pampering, and hanging out and watching her son (who is like a son to me) play baseball, and yummy food, and lunch out with another dear friend. It was healing balm for this tired Mom and Grandma. 
On the last day there, I went to the gym with my BFF and was inspired by her strength. I have known for quite some time that while walking has brought me to a point...I am at a place that I need more and only a place like a gym is going to get me there. I need to strength train, I need weights and equipment that I just don't have at home. So I went and joined a gym. I am hoping that I can build muscle and tone up and not necessarily lose a bunch more weight but strengthen myself and build on the work I have already done. 
On that note...I got on the scale today and it was 180.8 so I have officially lost over 90 pounds. I am very excited about that. I am 5-10 pounds from my personal goals. The gym has other things in mind for me but again...building muscle and core strength is what I am really going there for. I did set some personal goals that I may try to shoot for but I am a little unsure of them and I need to anchor myself more. Goals regarding trying to learn to run and working towards a 5K in July is one of them. I am not going to give up my walking because I love that and I need the therapy and I know I would be giving up something that has made a huge impact on my life if I did. So I am going to try to incorporate walking/running at home and then do the weights at the gym. I will probably do some time there on the different equipment for short cardio bursts like elliptical, rowing, and this funking treadmill they have to warm up. For the most part my walking will take center stage in my environment as it has been because obviously it has been effective and I am guarded about that. 
My 30 day range goal is to be in the 170's and to run a mile. I had inserted a "hopefully" but that didn't sound very optimistic so I need to be a little more committed. I actually wrote down that when I do the Color Run on Mother's Day, I would like to run at least 1 mile of that. So that is just a hair of 1 month away. I have the distance under my belt as I walk 5,6,7 miles easily and I walk hills easily. I just have to break through the mental block that tells me to stop running and that is easier said than done. 
Off to go walk and throw a few sprints in there and see how I do today. Life is very good. I am blessed with family, friends and the strength that comes from my Saviour. He has given me the faith in myself to change. I know I can do this because nothing is impossible.

1 comment:

bsafam said...

Amy, you are so inspiring! I love your comeback journey!