Monday, July 26, 2010

This will have nothing to do with weight loss....

We may be at another cross roads in the life of our family. We are coming up upon a time where huge decisions are to made regarding our place in this world and where we should go next. A probable advancement will once again push us in other directions...but to where, we have no idea.

First I have to say how profoundly proud I am of my sweet husband. He is so shy to acknowledge that he is a pretty smart guy. What he has accomplished during his service in the Coast Guard is something pride worthy. Yet, he is so humble but I see it in his eyes. He will never boast but he is beaming for sure and I think he should. I love that about him.

I sat last night with my 3 eldest in the office. I don't even remember what caused us to all end up in the same room but it gave us the time to have a heart to heart. I went to bed last night filled with an insurmountable amount of gratitude for these gifts, our children. Each one of them is amazing and as much as I beat myself up about my failings as a person and a parent, I see them, I hear them and understand that they didn't get their magically. I did have a hand in the amazing kids they are. I heard my daughter share with us tearfully the most amazing testimony of her Heavenly Father's love, and her great love for our family. I was stunned for a moment and then consumed.

I am a lucky person and for all my struggles there are triumphs. Life is NOT all about my actually has precious little to do with it. It's about LIVING, and LOVING and being present in the moment. I miss so many important moments because I am thinking or doing things that are really unimportant. I don't want to miss anymore.

I will press on and be more prayerful about the changes I make in huge changes continue to be made in our family. My daughter reminded me that no matter what, we have a Heavenly Father who loves us and we have an incredible family. No matter where we go, that is a constant and anything else pales in comparison.

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